Currently laid here in the dark anxiety ridden at a all time low with life
The major problem is, when you're in such deep trouble, trying to organise some sort of help for yourself is simply a mountain too hard to climb. In utter desperation I've twice presented myself at A&E. I sat for an hour or so trying to keep it together. I was then called in to see a nurse who asked some fairly routine questions. She then told me to go back to the waiting area. After another two hours sitting there I realised there was no help coming anytime soon, so I just left.
I spoke to my sister over the weekend and she is yet another person who simply has no idea what mental illness involves. According to people like her and many others, it still is a matter of 'getting over it'. I find their responses very bullying and intimating. 'Come on, talk to me!!!'
How can you try to explain what is going on with you when faced with such misunderstanding and hostility?
It's why I buy drugs on PR sites. I'm desperate to find something that will help me.